Always the fat kid

Growing up, I was always the fat kid.   My mother always had me on a "diet" of sorts and was always commenting on my weight.    In 8th grade, i even remember her telling me "wow, you are almost as big as a house"    I had a rough childhood, and always suffered from depression, and low self esteem.


When i reached puberty, my weight issues escalated.   I had developed symptoms of PolyCystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS)  But it went undiagnosed for many years. So I just went on thinking i was just FAT!  My group of friends in high school were mostly all overweight, and we often got teased about our weight issues. Which made the depression i had suffered all my life to get worse.


After high school, I quickly moved as far from home as i could. I ended up taking a job across country and living there for almost a year.  I was able to get healthy, and was actually quite happy.   I met the love of my life, and we started to build a family.

It wasn't until after our first daughter was born, that my PCOS started to get REALLY bad. I started to gain the weight back. When our daughter was 2 years old we had trying for baby #2 and we found that I was having problems conceiving.  With this news, my depression came back full force.  

After 4.5 years of infertility we finally welcomed baby #2 into our family!  Another girl!!    Five months later, we had news that baby #3 was on his way!!


After Baby #3 was born, my weight problems got out of control.  I had started retaining water, and Ended up gaining over 150lbs in a very short time.

This is where my journey begins.